December 15, 2008

The Evening Moonlight

People say no day can be significant in your life, but there is a day that was the most memorable.

I was engaged dreaming Anushka, wondering if I could take a chance and hold her. All of a sudden, my mobile shouted . With no perception , answered the call. I heard a perfumed incessant voice with a breathtaking fragrance. Its smelling tastier than ever. Felt like yoga-diva Anushka rang for myne !!! I thought of eloping with anushka if the phone call haven’t disturbed me.

“Aakanksha, Is that you?” I said, even though I was a hundred percent sure it was.

“Yes Srujan, its me, Aakanksha.”

“Before you get into sleep, can I just say Something?” she said, with a humble voice.

Its been an year long we met each other. I never expected a call from her after the day we had a split. I never heard her sounding so fragrant.. She gave a call with love, I know and frankly I was too excited. She was a different person with intelligence and values about life. I was stumped seeing her earlier dussehra.

“Six o clock, The Park “ should be there, sharp. “ Need to talk to you something Important and Festive.” Was her word in phone.

I mentally Hi-Fived myself and tried to control my euphoria. I appeared to be serious while answering .

She put down the phone saying goodnight!

"Important and Festive ??? " I questioned myself.

"I kept silent; a new thought had crossed my mind; Aakanksha calling me after an year, that too at twelve in the night and saying something important to talk!!! " I couldn’t believe myself and had a bed-struggle for more than an hour. Suddenly, something flashed in my mind and opened the calendar on my mobile……and Shocked!!! It was Aakanksha’s birthday.

I didn't give a ring or haven't dropped any message on her mobile. but, I'm sure we would definitely meet at "The park" the same evening.

I arrived at The Park, went into the wash room to set my silky hair. The same evening, I puzzled choosing "the best" dress of my wardrobe. Finally, a pepe cargo, white shirt on a silver printed T-shirt was my pick. When I was into the hotel lobby, I found Aakanksha twinkling before me with a dazzling look in a traditional attire in electric blue. I'm unable to face the encounter with my “little beat of mystery". Aakanksha was very beautiful, a beauty never seen before, with her long black hair, which she almost left open and mehandi covering her hands. We both neared each other and had a warm shake-hand, I blaze almost as a blast furnace.

“I was too close to her, with a great excitement, thought of breaking that with a hug…..but stemmed inside.” Girls just seem to be away from sweet touches, but they really look for.

“Happy Birthday, Aakanksha,” I said, presenting her flowers.

She chilled out looking at them, but still, I was not excused…..her face was still in red.

“Aakanksha, I….!!!”

“No apologies srujan !!” enough, she said.

Girls appear to be complicated when angry; but, its boys who cool them with intelligence. I jolt her with my shoulder and threw a little smile. Felt like, I gripped her in less time.

We walked along the magnificent blossoming grass. Our table was very close to the picturesque sea water adjoining the hotel.

“Candle light, cold breeze, sponge grass and a stunning beauty” , a greater impact shown by all these, I blame all.

No one around us.......except the bright moon watching the deeds with radiant eyes. I couldn’t understand what I'm??? Something’s flaming inside. I exerted a lot with the inner me to curb all my feelings. But, I'm sure something’s gonna happen before we leave.

We kept silent.

“So?” I said. I mean, I really wanted to know why she invited in this speechless meet.

“So, why the big urge to see me today?” I said.

“Weather is cool right??” she said.

“I’m disturbed…..lets put in picture with no delay”. I said , killing with my looks pointing her.

"Srujan, all these days , I sense like some enchanting force made me determined. I was completely environed by you. Felt, your love is unstoppable, your caring is un-measurable and you are the most adorable in my life. I’m mad srujan.....gone mad about you. Probably, this should be the start of "our" endless life. I'm dreaming of that....heart fully.”, she said with a heavy emotional voice.

“So, when should we get married ?”, I asked , looking at her beauty that's making me Insensible.”

Soon, her eyes started brimming with happiness.

I aspire giving a good eminence to our relationship with our marriage, Even I'm waiting for this moment for an year. I said, while her eyes look still wet. “She bolt my hands in her and entreated not to leave her. She felt like the most happier and luckiest on earth and slowly rested on me looking at the striking platinum pendant I gifted. She stayed calm for few minutes feeling relaxed. All I want is to dip her in happiness with little romance.” I was done.

“All the life…’re my everything.” I nodded my head to Aakanksha’s desire. It is miserably cold , while a sharp light pointed towards my eyes. How could the night turn to day so quickly? questioned myself. It was 6.30 when my mom prevent me from dreaming. The story was a dream, though it was a dream I started my day seeing my mother. A dream that made me look a realistic night into an overnight journey of a grown-up love.”

“There's a special place for everyone in my heart.....and so a special place for the girl who's gonna seize the place in my romantic heart.” Once I get engaged……I would definitely share all my in this blog with an enjoyable post .

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October 2, 2008

నా పరిచయం !!

ప్రతి దినం ఒక కొత్తదనం.....

ప్రతి స్నేహం ఒక తీయదనం......
ఆ తీయదనం ఒక అనుభవం !!

ప్రతి ఇష్టం లో ఒక కారణం......
ఆ కారణం ఒక బలం !!

ప్రతి గెలుపు వెనక ఒక స్నేహం......
ఆ స్నేహం ఒక సంపద !!

ప్రతి ఆనందం ఒక స్వప్నం......
ఆ స్వప్నం ఒక వరం !!

ప్రతి స్నేహం ఒక నమ్మకం......
ఆ నమ్మకం ఒక ధైర్యం !!

ప్రతి జీవితం ఒక అద్ద్బుతం
ఆ అద్ద్బుతం వెనక కొన్ని స్నేహాలు !!

నేను ఒక అర్ధం ఉన్నా పరిచయం......వ్యర్ధం కాని అనుభవం !!
మరిచిపోను చిరకాలం......గుర్తుంచుకుంటాను కలకాలం !!

September 22, 2008

Glorious Days @ Rajam

You should never forget me…....Promise!!! Never....i'l never, srujan!! Replied karthik. I cried on his shoulders, on may 7th 2005. I still remember the day we left GMRIT, Rajam . All CSE guys appeared the day before as "Rajam Rulers". It was an Unforgettable day as we all parted.

The whole 2005 batch met at the civil block, every one was chit chatting and recollecting all their memories at GMRIT. Some were joking, some were crying …..while some were dumb. At a corner I was observing all the drama over there. I was among the dumb. Beside me was raghu ram. Apart from knowledge gained, every student has heart-full of memories that he/she can remember all his/her life. All gathered at 5 pm in the evening and passed 4 hours , until the security manager shouted all the girls to leave to their hostels. Some guys asked for some more time as they want to talk with their loved ones/ friends. After few minutes of silence and few minutes of sharing memories I felt bad leaving raghu ram. He’s some one special for me. Still, we’re in touch. At that moment no one’s thinking of their future……thinking of, just leaving the friends. Because, four years of wondrous engineering life has come to an end. I felt like an English picture was running on the reel . Different panoramic views at all corners . Some crying, Some were silent……and some enjoying how easily gals open tears. It was the CSIT batch , where boys and gals were close and many formed pairs at that time…..donno how many led/ gonna lead their life until marriage. I am happy with vamsi and manasi…….nothing went unconventional on their way and few others .

Meanwhile, Ramchand left for vizag to get his car. Karthik escaped from this heart spilling sentiment and stayed in the room , I had no address of midhun….thought….he might went on his personal job. Gangadhar with Madhu, GL Sirisha and others. He’s not with Pranavi as she left on the day we completed with our exams. Reddy was shuttling between many girls. That night, I was recollecting all the memories . Next day we planned to pack all our luggage and the day after leaving rajam . “ I started thinking the causes behind studying at rajam??……how I got in touch with 100 odd friends?? How many are going to stay in contact ?? “ Many questions arose in my mind……the answer for my 1st and 2nd questions are fate and the 3rd cannot be predicted. The next day we all guys partied together roaming around the dusty roads of the small town and meeting our HOD Prof. Sesha Rao Garu. We spent some time at dolpet and had a photo session. The same night the remaining gals left to their homes. I remember madhu, neelima, jayasree leaving the college and reddy presented a beautiful flower to madhu and made everyone laugh with his stomach-paining jokes. After they left, we again gathered at Boys hostel main-gate…. where, our juniors were waiting for us. I still remember Vijay, Nanda, rajesh, sudheer, shanmukh, prasanth, sundeep, Mahesh , Ramakrishna, jaya of 2002 batch and Deepak, vamsi, sampath, Pawan, ramkumar of 2003 batch were few among the guys who gave us an unforgettable send-off. Karthik, Chakri, RC, Gangadhar(s), Reddy were present . Just before leaving….vijay hugged me and let his tears wet my shirt. Seeing this RC turned on some. But, Gangadhar(white) and Chakri singing the same…..we’re kings.

The final night……around 30 guys gathered at our house in srikakulam road and sat on the main road until 1 am listening to the comedy lectures given by lokesh, Prasad and rajendra. We enjoyed that !!! The next morning we all tied our baggage to the car. Midhun, Chakri and Preetam left 2 days after….as they have their own commitments at rajam. It was 9 when every one gathered at bharat’s room…..there was no mood of happiness on a single face. All were gathering one by one. Suddenly rajendra started crying at the front gate looking all of us. Every one has some kind of respect / special friendship on other. So, Reddy started with Nageswara Rao, Gangadhar with Ganesh. It was heart touching !!

It’s a saga of fours years of journey. I remembered all these and posted .Wishing a get- together to be arranged in near future. The things which gives me a relief is Aravind, Chandu, I, Chiya, Bharat meet atleast thrice a month during weekends and a few others who often visit vizag.

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August 21, 2008

Chintalagraharam ChinnaRao

One day I was on my way to home from a village called chintalagraharam in an auto. It was 5 minutes of my journey.....something blasted. I was bounced and feeling the bumps on the road."Chi......malli tyre puncturu.....mepalekha chasthunna!!One day hike on petrol , the other day vegetables , another day cereal' can we live sir??"Auto driver asked with an uncongenial voice!! He rents the auto for Rs. 300 per day. He betrayed with an atrocious voice. "I roughly save Rs 100-150 per day after all my expenses, which includes the auto rent, he said"!!

"My children study 2nd and 4th in government high school at chintalagraharam. I want them to study well. Today, I need not spend a lot on my children's education because, a sum of Rs.600 per year is enough, which is not high. But, the standard of education is still low at government schools. Look at kerala, they have the higest number of literates at 90.92%, which is a very good figure and more over women in kerala are well employed equally to men with a sex ratio of 1058 females per 1000 males. We should esteem the reforms that kerala governments have taken in the past. I agree that the government in Andhra Pradesh is doing better today with good amendments. Definitely, these measures will yield good crop in few years!!" He explains, replacing the punctured tyre. How do you know all these?? I asked!! "Newspaper sir!! I am a subscriber for a daily and a weekly.I Read newspaper for 2 hours daily. I am an enthusiast to know the happenings in the world. I like the thoughts of the young generation. A small example is Ramu, an 18 year old boy, working as a paperboy distributes newspaper to vepagunta, naiduthota and surrounding areas. Previously he used to work for Eenadu, they pay Rs 5 per paper. Today he shifted to sakshi, which pays him Rs 7. It just seems like a Software Employee changing jobs!! He said, removing the nuts and bolts of the punctured tyre". I was really excited at that moment at his knowledge."

"If i'm not wrong, I still remember the day when our area MLA last visited our village. Our village is into parawada segment. You know ?? I was offered Rs 200 and a bottle of liquor during 2004 elections. I said no, because i will never be sold for money". He is explicable while he feels proud of himself and started our journey." One thing is, I do not encourage the government giving 1 kilogram rice for Rs 2. The reason is, Daily labourers work a lot and throw all their earnings on liquor, as they get the rice for cheap. They get 50 Kg rice for just Rs 100 which is sufficient for a small family for a month. Poor farmers put all their money on fields. During harvest, they expect something more to save. They dump all their on fields and take the crop to the marketyard. There, they get nothing , as the price will be already fixed by the arbitrator's. Ultimately the farmer is the loser. Recently, The government announced loan waiver to the farmers, who doesn't have the ability to pay their loans back to banks. But, this is not a solution for a farmer. Each and every farmer should be guided on methods of growing, he should be educated on each and every crop, he should be well known of the "season-crop" match, ultimately....he should get a good market rate which ends him in profits"

By the time when i reached home, I was in a state of concussion, listening(discussing) all these. He's an Educated human being with immense social knowledge, Respect, Civic sense. He knows well-in-depth about Politics, Education, Health, Employment, Movies. But still striving hard with his livelihood as an auto driver. He's planning to be an owner of a new vehicle by dusshera.Wish....he will!!


August 7, 2008

Signs Of Love???

Its been a wonderfull day and I started from my home with loads of luggage to the waltair station for train no. 2727.It was a bit hot as the fresh humid breeze giving signs ,that summer pertaining to start . I hadn’t expected much different when traveling to Hyderabad, the abode capital of Andhra Pradesh.It was really difficult for me to say bye to my mom with a heavy heart.She's the best...."I love u Mummy"!! My friend chandu was waiting for me at S9,2727.No suspence.....2727 is the "Godavari Express",The jewel of waltair.Here, i should mention about chandu. He's the best among the funniest guys i ever met.cracking the same stupid jokes!!"Many times they are the better, i say stupid one's to keep him down".Chandu presented a gift, Nothing but.....laugh,the ultimate mental relaxation.He's no partial,presents to everyone.Another three charecters enter into " Signs of Love?? ".Definitely i will introduce them as the saga proceeds."What to do,How to kill time?" I asked myself and heard 'pepaar,Books,chains,watterbottles'.Yes, i am a lover of IndiaToday.ordered 'IndiaToday,waterbottle'.No worries about dinner, mom packed my favourites Chapati with keema.Luckily, a different sort of time killing assistance was found, running on the railway platform.Running!!! yes.....they are human beings,happened to be my friends vamsi and manasi.But, dissappointed....they hate heat.Throwed their baggage into AS2-The AC compartment.

I'm thinking about the suspence of the next 12 hours, but chandu on form.I'm not concentrating at his speech."Who is she?" Questioned myself, a beautiful aesthetic beauty in pink made me turned .My heart trembled a bit!! It was a wonderfull day i felt, It was 5.20 listening to the announcement.Got into the compartment, waving my hand to chandu.
There's some jubiliant looks touching me.Not from my back, diagonally sitting to me. Slowly, I was being poisoned by her. The same cologne every girl leaves , I felt!! I'm strong but, loosing my control to her. " sugary thoughts killing me, feeling auspicious , euphoric , admirable god for running good time.....totally, i was blessed!! " Is what i felt at that moment, looking at her!! All these because, I have a great heart to give !! But, I do not know her, atleast I did not talk to her!! I have words but, I'm, my heart was dumb!!All these emotions and intuitions in noice, no one can disturb.....except my love...."MY MOM"!! A heavy vibration from pocket reached my heart. Definitely, its my mom !! said to myself. I was out of that ambiance in a very short frame, it was my mom, telling all the foresight's. I was selfish! I want my mom. !! If my mom wouldn't have called, It would take an overnight to come out of the block. I said no again, started reading India today.I do not know how i'm going to kill the next 12 hours of journey.but i'm relaxed alot, My "sound blaster - the 1000W PMPO" will board the train at Anaparthi.But,It takes 3 hours more to reach anaparti.Between i cant sleep, there's no one to accompany me, no wireless communication - Hutch never follows , no music.But, it should be some thrilling travel ever.Thinking looking at India Today, only looking.....i'm not reading.Then came anakapalli, joined with me a 40 year old.Chained his luggage, wake me up when rajahmundry arrives,Please!!......he asked. I replied Yes !!

I liked her a lot.Some feeling havoured my heart.I Should speak to her, said to myself.She is travelling with 3 other friends.All are casual and funny.Iimmensly liked her.I have the habit of relinquishing equal importance to all my friends.Many feel great and few feel persistent and tainted.But, i have my loved ones to understand me, Is what I always feel. Everytime she's diverting me .She is observing all happenings in S9. She's just smiling and listening to what her friend says.There's some magic in her, I feel. I liked her of her cute looks, beauty and plainness . I felt like a girl who knows her limits, respect, social, and moreover friendly !!

It is Easy to kill the other person with looks.........but i felt its wrong. Moreover, i happened to be a stranger to her.If there's anything I should go and speak to her. At that moment I'm no Dare.So, left for AS2 to have a chat with Vamsi and Manasi at samalkot. Interestingly, they had a big-small fight."Big" seemed to looking at their faces,"Small", because they face walls at a max. of 15 mins. Here comes a time killing person boarding at Anaparthi, "Padala Venkata RamaKrishna Reddy".He looks taller, just like his name. Anyways, the name says it all.He got his berth in S7, i met him and he kept the train under his eye scanner about some beautiful girls as it is the day after telugu new year's day.He never misses, but just tries. So, we had a chat for an hour while having my favourite Chapati-Keema together.At some corner in my heart , there's an incalculable enthusiasm pertaining to gay. I shouldn't miss any chance, i said to myself.To my belief, she went to wash her hands followed by her friends. I dont know i would get a chance so early....but to my blockheadedness i missed the chance. I have done the same thing as she, washed my hands and sat on my bearth like an inarticulate. Reddy left for his compartment,all began to go for rest.I never imagined that i'm going to experience a half-sleep night. I still remember the night....oommph!! great experience! I was planning for different ways to talk to her, looking at her beautiful face in dim light.

It was 6.35 and to my luck, the train is still at Moula-Ali which takes nearly 15-20 mins to reach secunderabad, running late by 30 mins.The train Finally arrived on platform no 10. Reddy and myself were waiting for Mr & Mrs vamsi, the then engaged, now married. It was daylight,when i found her.......I wanted to allow my soul to be eyes deceiving me, when I saw her standing there!! is what i felt at that moment. But, I'm strong.Came out in very few seconds.This time I got another' opportunity to know her mobile number just near to our falt, where she got down from another bus. At that moment i was not strong enough again to hold her, So missed this time, and thats the final time, i've seen her. After that,I tried a few times but i was not lucky enough as before.

I have no hopes on meeting her, but definitely i wanna meet to say "Hi, this is srujan"!! which i wished to say some 17 months ago!! Opportunities were given but not utilised at right times.This is neither infactuation nor Love!!Its Just a feeling when my heart trembled. I was never disappointed, never let down myself..........i Felt its an experience, an experience of joy, an experience every one will feel atleast once in a life time, an experience one should remember all your life, an experience you share with your loved ones, an experience i felt i should share with you!! Still, I have my great heart for her !!

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